well my original post slightly differs from this...probably is a bit more raw than the admin edited version...and goes for a hell of alot longer...self curiosity and exploration was also prevalent during my young to mid teen years...my parents didnt open up much about the sexual conversation much at all..so there was voyuerism at a young age..and something else which i wont say directly but if you can figure it out...i now have the occassional lower back issue from doing it....