Yesterday was awesome, from when I got out of bed I just felt great. Like my body is humming at the perfect frequency.

I had a hard time falling asleep because of it, and ended up not sleeping well at all, and today I feel like sh'' and that I got hit by a truck. Feel slow and stupid. This is how I felt the day before the good day yesterday.

I hate this disease. The cycling. it's cruel.

I had made plans to garden today, get to the nursery, etc, spent a lot of day outside. I feel empty and no interest. Today is probably the best spring day we've had so far, and I did go outside but just stood/sat there like I'm frozen.

Hope will get better as day goes on. I guess that's one good thing, I cycle frequently so tomorrow or even this evening might be great.

I just wish I had normal 'emotions' and psycho-motor changes were not so extreme. If I got a card in the mail that said I won a million dollars right now, I'd just set it down and say 'oh'. If something really bad happened, it'd just say 'oh' too.

F U bipolar.

Best things I can do are eat/shower, still get outside some, and keep positive attitude. Maybe I'll be up for gardening later on.