hi SG .. i understand... it sounds like you're feeling guilty for being unhappy.. that doubles the pain imo...

first, i would accept the fact that i am in pain and accept that that is part of who i am now... not that i would always be that way, but, where i am in the moment...

next, if you can, when boyfriend gives support, let him know that its helped... that will encourage him to continue if he truly cares...

take care