We could travel the word together- one of my top joys in life. I value traveling more than having children (but it doesn’t mean I can’t have both).

But I fear that I will always feel the void. I have a very small family as most of my family is abroad and I always felt that void of not being surrounded by family. So I thought children could be a good way to build my own family up.

When we met I was 20 and he said he didn’t want kids within the first few months of dating. Back then I didn’t know if I wanted them or not. I had just experienced a huge trauma and he was the first man I even felt comfortable with. As our relationship has progressed and I’m faced with the idea of not having kids I realize that I do want them. We spent the last year really taking about it which was after I’d already been in love for a while and that’s when he wanted to compromise for my sake but he thinks ultimately it would be the wrong choice ultimately landing on his final decision to not have them.