Hi mulan, I can fully relate, you're not alone in your struggle believe me. I'm in the same boat. Depression, social anxiety, ptsd, it's awful. A daily struggle all right and from what I've learned, 2 in every 100 people have AvPD. I haven't been diagnosed AvPD as such, but I've looked into it enough and that's what I have. 2 in every 100 people - it's a lot of people but of course that doesn't make our lives any easier. Hang in there and don't lose hope please, or if you do lose hope fight to get the hope back. Try different things to improve your life as well, keep pushing your boundaries which I'm guessing you probably do, and if you ever need to chat, you can message me too if you like, I wont mind. It's about beating this beast into submission.