Dear T,
Do I talk about the one thing today? It gives a really good example of something with H, but...would require me to admit to something regarding you. So would I be testing you? Do I feel some need to do that now that I don't have MC anymore? Do I feel the need to rock the boat because things have been seemingly going quite well between us? Am I just scared? Should I admit that first? Or is this actually about wanting to talk about H and give a concrete example of something? Ugh, I don't know...maybe I'll just talk about part of the thing, see how you react? Or maybe I'll just talk about other stuff entirely today. Or talk about H without that. Or talk about my mother. Or just talk about my successes the past few days with drinking and exercise and how to keep that up without talking about the scarier stuff.
I guess I'll just see how I feel when I get there. Maybe see what shirt and socks you're wearing, like that will be a sign or something.
Love,
LT