Thanks. I actually missed my pdoc appointment today- because I got confused and my cell phone "reminder" told me it was tomorrow! Tomorrow "Monday". lol It thought there were two Monday the 4ths in a row, apparently, until I rebooted. lol I see her in a week, but to check up on other things- meds, bipolar stuff. I might save this for my social worker, who does all of the talk therapy with me. I've never thought it bothered me too much - until I suddenly get upset at being held down during sex. It isn't everything that has to do with trust and control with sex- just being held down. Funny thing is, I have a brown belt in judo- and that involves a lot of wrestling and pinning and VERY rough grappling with men- and that's never bothered me. Then again, all you have to do is "tap out".