The tears and sorrow never seem to end. You soon learn there is something below down and you are on the express elevator headed in that direction.

That sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach is here to stay.
You can’t, won’t, don’t sleep. Hours, days, weeks, months all run together.

Thoughts race through your brain at 100 mph going nowhere. They are so disjointed nothing makes sense. They are going so fast you can’t even think them.

Your world seems to be crumbling around you and you are powerless to stop it. Friends disappear unable to absorb what is happening. No matter what I do, I seem to hurt someone. The choices I make are never right. Everyone around me suffers.

I can't seem to cope with day to day life. I have to choose between myself and those around me. There is no good out come either way.

You all have been helpful and supportive and I'm eternally grateful. I'm just not sure I was meant to survive. Maybe it is time to quit.

This popped into my brain about 3:30 am

You hold my heart in your hands
Do not drop it, never let go
For when our friendship ends
The tears will begin to flow

A word not spoken
A sigh never heard
Feelings kept hidden
Our friendship only a word

Can tears ease the pain?
Do they ever end?
With all your wisdom, tell me
Does a broken heart mend?