been really stable for some time now ... low but stable ...

It scares me but on my monday Pdoc appt I am going to ask to maybe try something completely different ...

sleeping ok ...but anxiety very high at work ( xanex ) more than I want too ... very anti social ... hold up in house anytime I am not working ... 0 friends (except here) ... 0 hobbies ... 0 social outlets ... went 4 days with out even talking to wife ..... not mad ..... just had nothing to say ...

not sui at all ... just don't even feel human ( or anything else for that matter ) ...

just surviving ... not even close to living ... but I am afraid to lose the stability I have now ...

just not sure ... Tigger .