I'm sorry you're feeling so out of sorts. I'm not sure, however, what "bad mistake" you're afraid of. The pdoc can't do anything to you since you're not a danger to yourself or others, so you've got nothing to lose by discussing a change with your doctor. Perhaps the pdoc can help you do something to help your feeling that you're not really living...a med change, or such. If it's any consolation I can relate to what you're feeling; I get that way from time to time & it can last a considerable period of time. I don't, however, pretend to know exactly what you're feeling, so all I can do is ask you to hang in there until you talk to your doctor again. Good luck.