Not really. I just picture myself in a different body in my own and feel awful being in this body of the female sex.

I have being watching a lot of transgender content and it’s been a main thing on my mind. I saw my psychologist today and he booked an appointment with me with someone who is transgender themselves and knows the government system in terms of medically transitioning so I think it will really help. My psychologist will be there too, and we’ve decided that I can make a timeline for when I can get everything done like with surgery and coming out to family. So I am hopeful in this regard.

It’s just I hate myself everyday more and more because I am not how I see myself at the moment. I know things will change but it takes time. And my patience has run thin from dealing with other mental health problems too over the years and feeling like nothing will get better permanently. I know that life is up and down, but not depression down for everyone.

Thank you for your response.