I think you are doing a very good job. Gender dysphoria is very tough to cope with day in and day out.
Add some other difficulties and it can definitely feel like far too much!
I am glad you have the meeting planned! It's a positive step!
I am happy to read/comment. You are going through a lot!
I have previously worked on a forum for people wanting to start/complete transitioning. The dysphoria is a true downer. Suicide rates are very high. I want to be supportive toward you.
My heart goes out to you!

WC