I was content being single, Now I feel unhappy. mostly because I've never had anyone who cared about me. everyone I know has had an intimate relationship with someone. So, I feel like an idiot, And people laugh at me about it. At work and sometimes at home.

I've never been on a date, because of my dysfunction, I've avoided every special thing that's come in my life. That's why I only went to strip bars, because I didn't think any real girls would want me. I don't think that as much now, except when I went this time, I asked a dancer if she would date me knowing I'm a 40 yr old virgin and she said "no". Which is what I expected her to say, So I'm not looking forward to the reaction of a real girl.

Thank you for talking with me, I just have nothing other then pc to talk to anymore, I Usually just cry myself to sleep, but being able to tell someone else makes me feel a little less alone.