So I’m in this situation where I’m trying to go back to school and the school is trying to make all of these excuses that I’m not stable enough, which they have no evidence to back up, and my T and entire treatment team says the exact opposite, that I’m very, very ready to go back and more stable than I ever have been before.
So after I left a meeting with the school psychiatrist in tears because he personally attacked me and basically there is no recovery from BPD and that I’ll always be like this, I called T while crying hysterically. T talked to me for a little bit to make sure I was alright, but then was like “I’ll call you back soon, I have to make some phone calls.”
So long story short, she called both the school psychiatrist and my case worker at the treatment monitoring agency the school made me enroll in, and apparently she went OFF on my case worker because of his false assertions (he literally doesn’t know me at all, really). She was really trying to advocate for me and he was being a jerk, apparently, so she gave it to him straight and raised her voice to him out of frustration. He told her she was being “unprofessional” and then later on the phone to me, told me that he wanted me to find a new T. Then I raised my voice to him and said “NO. She has SAVED. MY. LIFE.” At least he backed down after that.
It was quite the day and I’m still in the battle to go back to school...which is another story in its entirety. But, I just made this post to say that I felt so honored that T would stick up for me like that and that she cares that much and is passionate enough to react that way for me. She told me she went into “mama bear mode.” She always says her therapy clients are like her children. It makes me feel nice and cared about, even if she wasn’t technically “professional” in her actions. I would argue the opposite. Her being so passionate about me and what’s right for me only makes her a better and more effective T and therefore, to me, a better professional. I just have this warm feeling of care and connection with T in my heart right now. Despite all of the awful stuff that’s happening in life right now, I’m getting through it because of her.