Dear T,
Why are you so accepting of me? Don't you realize that will just make me get more attached? Wouldn't you rather just deal with easier clients? I mean, I think you probably picked your specialties for a reason--and needy, insecurely attached women in their early 40s with male authority figure issues is not one of them. Do you feel stuck with me, like you just have to put up with me? Because of what happened with MC? Or...do you genuinely like working with me? Because it does seem we have a rapport, and I make you laugh at times. Do you like the challenge? I hope so...I hope you're continuing to work with me because you want to, not out of some sort of obligation. Or...because you're getting two sessions a week out of me, so I'm helping to keep you in business. But...I think of how I feel when you're talking to me, and you seem genuine. The caring seems real. The connection seems real. So...I'm going to try to trust in that. I mean, if you wanted to get rid of me that badly, you just would, right? So you genuinely care or you genuinely like working with me or both. Or maybe you're just really ethical and would never drop a client... But I'll do my best to trust in what I'm feeling, to trust in your commitment to me, to your faith in me.
Love,
LT