Every time I quit my meds I start thinking that They want to control me using you, using meds, using people around me... They make people be nice to me. I have no idea if people know? Who's side are they on?

The thought that you might be not real... is killing me. Of course I don't deserve you. They made me believe...that you like me and so on. How foolish of me. What do they need? Do you know?

I guess They don't exist. You don't exist. I don't exist. It's just an illusion, a dream, idk. I have no idea what's going on. I'm scared and want this to stop.

Eta I love you