I'm sorry you are becoming sick over this. I agree with divine, why make these decisions now? You don't know what you want just yet, it seems, and it appears just having to make the choice right now physically affects you. It really shouldn't.

God, 23. I was married and divorced at that age lol. I'm 32 now and feel confident about not having kids. At 23, I wasn't so sure but that's a good thing because I had no clue what I was doing, which can be fun and scary. It's just a life lived, I suppose. I never thought I'd be married. There are no wrong or right decisions.

Can you take a break from having to worry about this? Leave it in the future where it belongs.