You’ve really put yourself through the wringer.

Welcome back by the way. I’m sorry you lost it all. I would be feeling empty too. Thank you for sharing your story. It is other people’s willingness to open up and tell all that has probably saved me from the same fate. I go through periods where I think “I’m fine! I don’t need these stinkin Meds.” I want to stop taking them and drastically reduce dosages. It never goes well.

I only try med reductions now with my Pdocs consent and supervision.