Well I couldn’t tell ya buddy except that you write well.

Got T? A therapist could help you a lot.

Yeah....we didn’t come clean with ourselves till about 3 years ago at body age of 45...that’s when the female alters went crazy on this website of which most here most likely remembers and probably blocked this account, lol. We knew at 15 and was scared to be found out that we vowed to hide this even from ourselves hoping that it would go away..,when I asked outloud is there someone else here and a voice spoke up and said her name is Susie....then she showed that she can take over...that was the first recognition. I think I just triggered her. Saying names triggers us. This paragraph is an edit and I can feel myself fading away. Good bye. Lol

You can have alters, emotional parts. They don’t necessarily can take hold of the body, for they are memory fragments and their job is to hold that memory.

Other Specified Dissociative Disorders (OSDD) is another diagnosis that holds specifications that aren’t quite DIDish...but are not any lesser of a problem for they include their own set of challenges.

I mean the first part can be taken as sleep walking, yes? But talking to the voices are a much different manner.

I don’t say I hear voices because that’s so scitzophrenic, but more like I communicate with, or think to....but I don’t count it as hearing because they aren’t outside the body. If they were.....they make a pill for that. Done tried it, doesn’t work.

My alters are like yours...but they directly take over the body when needed to do the job that they do. Some do console, some antagonize and chastise and ridicule, while others dictate, offer suggestions, words of encouragement, and comfort. While other Alters take over, like for work, socializing, sexual alters both genders, reactions to danger, surprises, conflicts,...they react to triggers both good and bad. Environment, locations, moods are all triggers: people, places, and things do us which amounts to feeling like a strobe light at times.

I’m more a shell that stays conscious as the Others gives us personalities. I become them but my gift is staying aware. When the next takes over, all the thoughts, memories, voicing, mannerism, gestures, the entire personality of the previous leaves and changes as the next takes over...then I become them. I can communicate through some, but only through them at their personal specs. With me dictating and they writing...or I just can watch. You can also say that I’m the conscious that is empty but is full when an Other is in. Without an Alter present, I’m dull, boring, can’t remember, can’t think, stupid, lives in dissociation, mindless, tired, empty....

This is how my system operates, but the next person’s can be totally different. Hope to hear more of your story. I look for similarities and differences in postings...that helps me dial it in. Good luck!