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Originally Posted by captgut
Every time I quit my meds I start thinking that They want to control me using you, using meds, using people around me... They make people be nice to me. I have no idea if people know? Who's side are they on?
The thought that you might be not real... is killing me. Of course I don't deserve you. They made me believe...that you like me and so on. How foolish of me. What do they need? Do you know?
I guess They don't exist. You don't exist. I don't exist. It's just an illusion, a dream, idk. I have no idea what's going on. I'm scared and want this to stop.
Eta I love you
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Ihope you see that these paranoid thoughts kick up a notch when you STOP your meds. I hope you go back on them, because you do seem a bit more stable on them.
I get the itch to stop taking them. I have done it a few times myself, and
every single time, I spiral down. It has happened enough where I am willing not to play that game (at least now in my life).