Has anyone had the itch to take more - not for SI but to feel better? When I play with my meds it's because I up my antidepressant. I will be feeling down for so long and then something will happen and I'll take an extra dose, and feel better. A few days later I'll do it again. Then I start taking 2 doses every day. It doesn't work out for me in the long run. For a couple of days I feel really good, then by 2wks depersonalization/derealization sets in hard and I don't feel like me, I don't know who I am, I have to remind myself of my name, I wonder what this person with this name is like, I am not that name... type of deal.

I just spent the last hour reading every email you ever sent me.