Sorry your struggling.

Ambien isn’t going to help if you take it and force yourself to stay awake.

Ambien can cause people to do things they might not normally do and certainly can cause paranoia, so why stay awake? Why bother taking it?

Increasing any of your meds on your own will only cause you to run out ... then what ?

Your last vacation with your parents you made it through and enjoyed it or at least that what you posted.

Being scared is okay , it sucks but it happens , trust your husband.