so why stay awake? Why bother taking it? It gives me a body high and my chest isn't all tight from anxiety. If that causes paranoia then I'll stop taking it as much.

Your last vacation with your parents you made it through and enjoyed it or at least that what you posted. I did enjoy it but I cut it short because I thought my husband was taking my son away and they were in on it. I spent most of the time worried about them.