Wow that sounds like amazing experiences you’ve had. That’s interesting your alters didn’t reveal themselves until you were 45. Why were they afraid to be found? Maybe my “alters” are now wanting to reveal themselves to me, hopefully. While reading your post I suddenly felt the strangest strong numb feeling at the top of my head and the feeling I was about to lose consciousness. Is that how it feels when an alter takes over?

So you don’t hear audible voices? I’d say most of my voices are more of an intense knowingness, which in itself can at times generate some form of an image of the words. Although sometimes the voices are so powerful that it has an audible quality, which can originate from any place from outside the body to inside. I don’t have a T. If I told a T about voices they’d probably drug me up, right? Yes I hear voices, but that doesn’t come with the dangers of paranoia. Drugs could probably remove the voices is all, but I can do that simply by not responding to them. They’ll leave me alone, for decades, if I don’t talk to them.

Do you or anyone else here ever see flashes of light? When that happens it usually means one of my “alters” just arrived. They have their own world. The flash of light has a location. Most of the time I don’t see the light. Sometimes they probably send the flash of light just to let me know they’ve arrived.