oh, man I was truly hoping when you came back to us, you would feel so much better..
Please do not try to kill yourself again.
And everyone is a christian as long as they belive in god, and ask him for forgivness for what ever sin's you make/do to yourlsef or others..
You have to learn to love yourslef, not others first, before you can even begin to get better.. I had to learn this the hard way.. When I told someone I loved them it all blew up in my face. Now I understand others want friendship, but some do not want anymore.
We females.. Can be so hard to read.. for this I know since I am a female .... Try to understand your friend.. Be cautios and be slow, with her.. Tell her you still want to be freinds, and if she is not ready for the "closeness" you want, let her take her time. telling someone you love them can be a bullet they were not excpeting, sometimes they need some time re-adjusting to you.. So they can re-think why you are friends, and if it could be more ??

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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