Thinking that groups of people could read my thoughts particularly
my bad, evil thoughts was a big part of my delusions. "They" would
probe and question until the thought I was trying to hide spilled
out inside my head in front of "everyone". This is a just like
the aliens except now you are a criminal and the govn't
is after you. You will wake up from this the same way.

In my brief experience as the manic energy runs out the
delusions get more threatening. I went through
my 40 days of elation followed by 40 nights of
life threatening paranoia and it has never returned.
I didn't have anyone around me and my therapists
might as well have non-existent. So when it was over
I told them thanks for nothing and fired them.

I hope that you are getting sleep.

I hope that your family is looking out.