Feeling really messed up. I had a stressful weekend. It ended with a 2 hour drive last night in the pouring rain. Let me say that Driving is my biggest stressor.

Anyway, a semi-truck came behind me and was flashing his lights. There was a car on my right and I couldn't go anywhere. I was just trying to pass...the jackass trucker got on my tail, like a few feet behind me. I have my wife and daughter in my car and I was beyond angry. I reached for my drink (glass bottle of starbucks ice coffee) and my first instinct was to roll down my window and chuck the bottle behind me. I was able to resist.

My wife saw this and began b*tching me out which stressed me even more. I essentially got the blame for this a-hole being dangerous. I was in quite a state because, how could I be the bad guy here. When I finally passed the car and moved over, I was really catching h*ll from her and my daughter. Both screaming at me.

but my wife doesn't understand that she added fuel to an already burning fire. I have trouble controlling my emotions, and lost this round. I ended up driving another hour and a half with a bloody leg. I tend to self-injure when things get to be a little to much, but this was really out of the ordinary and a bad scene overall. I feel terrible about the whole ordeal and wish I could have handled it better, but I really felt like the trucker was putting us in danger.

When I get overwhelmed, I can be a danger and I really wish I would have handled it better. I'm really embarrassed about everything. I'm a s*it person; a weak person, and wish I could do better.