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Originally Posted by healingme4me
The first step is that you've acknowledged that the GED path is not for you.
What's your online recovery like? I mean, is there an interactive interface with live teachers and students?
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I still have yet to visit the online recovery website, but from what I've been told, it's essentially more of the same "read this, do this assignment" stuff, except digital. Our school couldn't afford some kind of program with live teachers or anything like that.
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Originally Posted by healingme4me
Your parents could possibly be angry because fear comes out as anger.
Have they set you up with a counselor? Is speaking with a counselor even something that would interest you?
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My parents have basically subconsciously trained me over the years to not share my feelings, by always making it into my fault. Anytime I feel like crap, instead of actually offering me support, they explain to me how it's entirely my fault, and how I
shouldn't be feeling that way, like I'm not allowed to or I'm a bad person for feeling the way I do. I can't open up to them anymore. And I sure as f*** wouldn't be able to open up to some random school counselor.
One time, after a particularly heated yelling session, my mother asked me if I thought I needed therapy, and I told her it was something worth considering, everything else they've tried has failed, so why not give it a shot? Afterwards, radio silence on that front, and for the reasons stated above I'm too anxious to approach them about it again.
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Originally Posted by healingme4me
I have a friend who told me that it's standard knowledge and proven fact that it's more to do with the developmental stage of your age, as my own son has struggled himself this year. That whole "pointless" piece of your OP speaks volumes to everything that he, himself is going through. Imagine that, you are not alone!?!
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I don't know if it's just me, but the last line here feels kind of condescending. I am aware I'm not the only person who feels this way. I'm not that much of a self-centered, clueless teenager.
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One step, at a time. Do you have hobbies that you enjoy? Do you have friends that you spend time with?
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I enjoy writing, old technology, and A/V, but lately my enthusiasm for those fields is all but dried up and I can't seem to get myself to have any passion for them anymore. I still love them. I just can't make myself be bothered to engage in them. The whole lack of motivation thing extends beyond just my schoolwork.
I have a small group of people I hang out with on a regular basis who I guess are the closest things to "friends" I have, but half of them have openly admitted to not really liking me much at all, and the other half just hardly interact with me at all anyways, at least in any meaningful way.
I have more friends on the internet than anywhere else, but we all know how suddenly they can disappear or just stop talking to you or hate you for no reason.
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Originally Posted by healingme4me
I spoke to another colleague that runs a night program and she said there is actually a waiting list. Says volumes about how not alone you are in this struggle.
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Again, I'm aware I'm not the only person in the world. I apologize if you didn't mean to come across as condescending and I'm just a sensitive little b***h, but I've been putting up with these kinds of generalizations and assumptions about kids my whole life.