Still plodding along, this year has been a **** show so far. My oldest son's father OD'd New Years Day. I was on the phone when they pronounced his dad dead and I have been having nightmares about the sound of him screaming ever since. Then my bf nearly bled out internally from an ulcer in front of his kids. Then my 36 year old sister had a stroke, my bf's mom is in ICU and might not come out and my best friend is going through and abusive relationship and a nasty divorce and talking about suicide. I'm about ready to run away. This is too much, I have nowhere to turn, I'm trying to be there for everyone and losing myself. I suck at this.