T....i e-mailed you, so you know. what is wrong with me? is it just because after college, something in my brain broke, and that was that? there are no answers. no "reason" to be?

i hate it. HATE IT. I want there to be an answer! Why, I don't know? Can't I just accept that is what happened and move forward?

Except...I do not know HOW to move forward, or what I even WANT to move forward.

You can't answer those questions, hence the cement wall.