I have to find a way to put my thoughts back in order. Sometimes I am ok but times like today I wonder what I do it for. Everything feels unfamiliar. I just want to stop for a minute and feel. I spend my time chasing thoughts of where I should be. I am afraid to stop because I will realize I don't know anything about myself. What's real whats in my head. fears paranoia love anger confusion. Self, how can I not know that. I am exhausted.