T.
By far you have been the best therapist I've seen over the decades and I feel like you genuinely want to see me get over my difficulties, but you are trying to build on a foundation that doesn't exist. What derailed my life began so early that no matter what I do it is always a reaction to those events, and I have no concept of what normalcy should feel like. There are no memories of the person I was before it began... this is all I am.

I'm so weary of feeling as hollow as I do every single day of my life, but I am too embarrassed to tell anybody what I think might help me. Every time I leave our sessions I hate that I was once again held prisoner by my past, my mouth refusing to speak what my mind has wished to for so many years.

Eventually I think you will come to see me as a lost cause and give up.