So, okay, here's my fear, I guess...In my past relationships, I felt like I didn't have a right to my feelings. So I guess I'm afraid that I'm afraid that I'll expect him to behave a certain way and then be invalidated for having those expectations. And I'm not talking about absurd expectations. I'm talking about the expectation that he be honest and forthright with me, that he not lie, and not lead me on.

If y'all recall I was seeing a guy in the fall and he kept it under wraps that he had this on and off relationship with a woman until like our 3rd date or so, but seemed to think I wouldn't mind being his "runner-up" when he wasn't with her. When I found that out I never spoke to him again. And I was very angry that he hadn't been honest with me. He had mentioned her as just a friend in the past but completely left out that they were romantically involved.

And I guess I have a history of getting involved with men who can't simply be direct and honest. And I don't mean in a minor way, but in a major, deceptive way.

I am totally fine with just making a friend. I am sort of interested, I do think he's a nice person, but I don't really know him yet, and if we just end up being buddies who hang out and do stuff for fun and that's it, I am TOTALLY cool with that. I'm open to any kind of human relationship right now.

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