Update:

He wrote back and replied to my email. I saw the first few words, I could tell it was going to be super nasty, so I DELETED it without reading it.

I am SO proud of myself for doing this.

In the past, with each toxic relationship, I have engaged in their toxic, negative communication styles and I've fought back, defended myself and also went on the attack against their abuse towards me. I stooped to their level, each and every time.

This time, I did it differently and I deliberately CHOSE NOT TO ENGAGE.

This has done wonders for my mental health!!!

I feel empowered. I feel strengthened. I have chosen positive mental health and self-care, vs. negative behavior. This is a BIG step for me.

Previously, through all toxic relationships, their poor treatment of me stuck around for a very long time. Now, I can rinse myself of him, of his toxic ways and not engage in it... I can skip happily away, with my self-esteem in tact.

I feel I have really come a long way. This is a turning point for me in life.

Although, I have now had several nightmares since of being attacked. I know it relates to his email.

This morning I did an energy cleanse, and it's working. I lit a white candle, I burned some incense, I put on ocean waves in the background and asked the universe to take away the negative, toxic energy from me. And I do feel lighter, better... weird, but effective.