Anything involving sex and intimacy. I feel like I'm being dirty and bad when I find myself wanting either of those things - talking about them is damn near impossible. Especially intimacy - for me, that's worse than sex because that means much more to me and seems much more impossible to have because I don't believe I deserve it.

I also have a hard time saying anything that I think is critical of him - kinda feel like who the hell am I to be critical of anything he does. On the very rare occasions where I managed to spit it out, his reaction was not positive and I ended up feeling worse for having done it.