Saw my doc today. Melted down crying and telling him that I just cant do it. I had such a good run and thought it would last.
He is very comforting and easy to talk to, he responds with understanding. He knows my cycles.
I am going to add wellbutrin to my meds, to see if we can get a lift from the depression. He said it is one that has more of a uplifting on your dopamine. I know I have taken it in the past but not sure why I went off of it.
I told him I didnt want to live anymore and we talked about that for awhile. We made the usual promise about calling him before I decided to do anything. He is very easy to get in touch with, that is one reason I like seeing him.
I am going to do my best to keep going, I just want what others have.