((((Marie))))) I know about depression as I have had it I believe since pre teens...It was not my childhood that was bad, but who I chose to love...he would have killed me and I was oh so ready for it...but it didnt happen adn i was left with so many questions...the things that got me thru were my 2 boys(who have broke what was left of my heart), that i couldnt help someone who didnt want to be helped (though i tried for yearsssss), the thought that i was the one who turned my back on god and the whole time i was alone, He was waiting to take my hand and I felt so worthless for sooo long, and the last but not least was that if what i endured didnt kill me, then there must be something i am missing that i need to learn...i am here for a reason, whether it is for me or someone else, it is in God;s hands...

I am sorry, not getting all religous on you...but you are a SURVIVOR...and it may be hard, but the best you can do for your sons is to not let them get violent...you can take that stand cause you are worth it!!! i am here if you want to talk...i am all ears and bear hugs and warm fuzzy well wishes for you...and by taking that stand you may break the cycle for a chance your daughter may end up with a violent person...

oh n i read whole post...just a little late in replying...so hugs n i am glad you found this site!!! PC is great!!! ~ melanie