What if I can't like people? People make me tired.
This past days social anxiety has been partially on check, two days in a row, it isn't bad... But Wednesday is my trigger day.
So, anxiety lessened, angry increased. I am randomly angry, I should accept the difference and the traits I don't appreciate on others, but I turn my disapproval into some sort of dislike towards the person. And obviously it's almost impossible to like anyone this way.
I don't express my feelings, I don't treat anyone badly (I hope), it's just something I feel and I think about when I am at home.
J annoys me because he loves to be in the spot light, S annoys me because she tries to portrait herself has the perfect person and the victim of every situation (natural things got imperfections) and she cares to much about the outside or admires people based on their looks and status, J2 is too much enthusiastic, past the point, every time she speaks, and there is something about her I find threatening (don't know what)...
I suspect some of this angry is some countertransference feeling associated with my low mood.

If I had more life and mental energy/happiness of my own I wouldn't mind this much.