Dear T,

I’m ok.

I’m hoping my situation will pass or get better. I’m kinda ‘stuck’ sitting in my chair atm.
But sometimes i feel bad in the evening and think well, if something happens I just want u to be able to remember how I feel. It comforts me to write, “I care about u,” at the time.

I’ve reread some of my previous emails to you and thought, that sounds seductive.
But that’s not how I mean it at all.

Maybe that’s why a few of my previous therapists sexualized our relationship bc they thought I was being seductive. They mixed their own transference feelings or interpretations into our relationship. But I think these feelings come from my younger self. I don’t believe previous therapists understood that.