Sorry if this is tldr. I'm not sure where to post this. But when I was younger I was diagnosed with autistic tendencies with auditory processing disorder. This was back in the late 80's early 90's when they didn't know much about it. So I was put on paxil. The problem is I'm such a mixed bag of emotions I don't know what I have. Going to tell you about my likes and personality, it may be weird. But I believe I can fit in anywhere. I don't have many dislikes or pet peeves. As in I like all types of music, religions. I could go from rich stuck up crowd, to the bums and be just as happy. I could also go to most countries and fit in just fine. I believe I have an adaptive personality.

Now when I'm alone I listen to a lot of horrorcore and death metal. I also tend to study serial killers because I like to figure out the why and how they think. I would never kill anyone. Almost feels like a switch I can turn on and off. I have a lot of love and compassion though lol. I love my family, my pets and even cried during the movie UP. I also tend to look up weird things like bdsm a lot. Never tried it before though. I don't have any friends. My days are sitting at home watching Netflix or playing games when I'm not at work. Also for some reason my room tends to always be messy.

I never tell anyone everything I'm thinking, afraid to. Or even sometimes I'm not thinking anything or don't know what to say. So my conversational skills isn't the best. Also I tend to like dark things. I think demons and things like that are cool. It almost feels like I have soft outer self with a hardcore inner self that I never let out, if that makes sense. I know I have some autism though. Like hand flapping, not good with eye contact. Also when someone gives me directions it has to be exact. If it's just general directions I have trouble understanding. Not good with direction when it comes to driving as well.

I hope all this makes sense. I was just typing what thoughts came to my head lol. If you have any questions just ask.