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I can't find the trigger button.......Warning this can be triggering
I am a recovering Bulimic.
2 months ago I hired a remote coach to design workouts, lifestyle coaching and nutrition.
He has me doing things like:
Dry brushing in the morning and night
Rhythmic breathing while walking for 45 minutes
12 minutes of different breathing exercises
And then strength training.
For Nutrition he has me:
Drinking a tbsp of apple cider vinegar before each meal
Eating 1,600 calories a day! All lean proteins, fruits, veggies, low fat dairy, one serving of grains, serving of beans if I want. I am 5'2 and 129 lbs
I feel like I am force feeding myself all day.
So anyway I gave everything a shot. Did everything as prescribed.
I have not lost a pound in 2 months and my fat% went up.
When I weighted myself today I was devastated. It triggered such self hatred in me and felt like I was worthless. Intrusive thoughts have creeped in tool
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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