I work. I find the busier I am, the better I do. And my job is stressful. I think maybe that's not usual? Time to ruminate leads to time to get anxious and the next thing you know I'm in a mixed episode. If I could be a massive workaholic I might just get by without meds, but I'd be just getting by and barely. If I want a personal life where I can enjoy free time, I gotta be treated.