I got tired of waiting. As we wait, the clock ticks. I turned 50 a few years ago and took it upon myself to find something new. I climb mountains and took it upon myself to dive in......like a good BP will. But I haven't let go - 3 years later, I'm still having fun. I'm convinced the challenge, circulation in my body, and fresh air cleans out the bad mojo. I'm also trying to get healthy again. I'm a lifelong birdwatcher, that's a fun pursuit too. I took up guitar and I enjoy it as well even though I suck. These are all things I can do in my own realm at my own pace on my own time.

Take a few small steps, find something challenging, and see where it goes. My best quality is that I don't give a s*** what people think of me, thus I don't need to "be useful" to "feel worthy". I just own it on my own terms.