Having some anxiety today. Social anxiety and doctors/health anxiety.
The social anxiety was a bit of a mix of anxious and exciteable energy. I like hanging out with this person, but it's still new for us and it's still "perfect" and I have anxiety about keeping things "perfect". Ya know?
Then the health anxiety, well my bp was a little low today when I checked and I was nervous/anxious about the visit. Nothing in particular, just that I got everything told that needed to be told. Oh, plus the anxiety around being on time and all that. (we were early and got in quicker. that was a plus!) But yeah, I'm not feeling the best today and anxiety is there. Oh!

The kicker! My anxiety med is very likely messing with my preexisting condition, which obviously increases anxiety, but I'm now more anxious to actually take it. So yeah, overall a pretty anxious day, sadly. Could use the hugs metaphorically of course. i don't even feel much good for hugs with this feeling right now. *sigh* Hoping I feel better soon.

edit: literally just heard back from the pdoc. "now you only take this med as needed" *sigh That's it??! I mean, don't i have chronic anxiety?? I'm anxious right now...ugh! why don't I think of these things when I'm on the phone. Anyway, well I think I'll stop for awhile and see how I feel. *sigh what a day!