I have never had anything like this all of my life, for 23 years, and suddenly I am having them regularly.

When I say random, I really mean random, I’m not just exaggerating. Here is what happens:
I will meditate before going to work, and as ai finish meditating, even if the meditation wasn’t the best, I will be completely fine. Then, once I get to work, I can just be walking upstairs in the warehouse or just picking an order and out of nowhere I will feel the urge to cry and scream and sob. I won’t cry with tears, unless I stand there and focus on the feeling, but will dry sob, almost reaching a full blown panic attack.

I used to have panic attacks every now and again (never severe, only minor) as a child as I have haemophobia (fear of blood) because I was one of those kids that had loads of nosebleeds, but I dealt with that and now never get them and only have a mild fear mow. I haven’t felt phobia strength fear for a few years now, and because of that I learned how to catch myself before having a dull-blown panic attack and calm down very quickly.

On that note, which is what makes these attacks stranger still, I have always been an extremely passive, non-violent, laid-back, extremely calm person. I was so passive in school, bullies literally got bored of me. Haha. So when I’ve started to have these attacks or whatever they are, it feels rather diconsertong to me.

The only thing I can come up with is suppressed emotions are surfacing during meditation when my mind is quiet. However, when that happens to meditators, as described by some Tibetan Monks from my research, it’s usually only a few tears or maybe a quick boot of anger and a need to punch something...nothing as extreme as what I’m experiencing.

Does anyone on here have any experience with these sort of attacks?

Thanks. Peace.