Lately it feels like T doesn't believe me. Hell ask how my thinking is and I'll say it's good. Hell say is it REALLY good or are you just saying that. Later... He asks about the voices and same thing

He doesn't believe me anymore but I know why... The voices manipulate me and want me to be secretive. Hell ask something like that and they automatically just start in... No.. Don't tell him. My voices don't like t and they don't like me telling ppl about them.

So I lie to him. But later admit that I had lied

Anyway I see why t is mistrustful but I'm having a hard time dealing with it all and am having a lot of thoughts of sui