T - I wonder if it's time for me to move on. I really like you. You've been of tremendous help and support with a few things, especially around ex-t. I trust you, in some areas. I know you care about me and have my best interests in mind, as my therapist. But the power imbalance is too present. I feel like a business transaction.

Last week you said the client-therapist relationship should be a close one. How am I supposed to let myself get close to you so I that can open up when I feel so much distance coming from you sometimes? I just don't get our relationship. I don't know how to 'just be' with you. I'm too reserved because I feel you are too on guard. I feel like you feel you have to be extremely cautious with me so I don't report you, too. I feel like a big trouble maker with the plague. It sucks. I didn't ask for this. I know you didn't either. I guess the best solution is to talk to you about this...if only I could. So I'll probably quit. IDK.
AH