(((((((((((((Christina)))))))))))

I can tell how much you are hurting from this Leaving any major relationship is hard, and this isn't any easier.

Do you remember last year I left my first T? Well up until this semester I would always try and avoid seeing her at counselling services, and was just always worried because i thought it was "rude" of me to leave her, etc etc. Well, she's running the Mindfulness group that I'm in. And after the first session i went up to her and told her that i was sorry for leaving things how they were last year, that i felt bad, etc... and she was TOTALLY supportive. She wasn't mad at me or anything. In fact, she was so happy to see me there with the group, and just said she was glad I was able to find other ways to try and help myself.

So... maybe you're T wasn't as "upset" as you'd like. But I imagine, like my T, your T just wants you to find what works for you. We have to remember that this, therapy, is their job... and if they were to act anything other than professional about termination.. then they wouldn't really be donig their job would they? I know it hurts because he means a lot to you... but i'm sure you meant something to him as well.

Please keep going to your groups and taking the AD's... just because your therapy (with him) is over, doesn't mean other things can't continue to help you get through. Not all is lost here... and the more you keep pushing yourself away from the right help, you're only going to become more lost.

Please try and take good care of yourself k? And keep up with the group and AD's.... that is a form of self-care.

Gentle hugs,
Jacq