I no longer have a support team as such. I did something stupid and am now paying the price for it, secondary MH services won't take me back, even though I'm supposed to be a 'relevant patient' for the next 3 years... I don't feel very 'relevant', what's the point in telling someone they can come back to MH services if when they try, they're refused... Ffs!

Counsellor urged me to go see GP, she never gives advice so must have been a bit concerned.
Got appt to see a doctor, said the only thing they could do was tweak my meds, reduce the one I'm on and introduce another alongside it (something MH services said couldn't be done with this particular type of medication)... Review in 2 weeks.
Messing around with the medication when I'm feeling so bad worries me a bit, but suppose there wasn't anything else they could do.
If it has the effect of pushing me over the edge - result.