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Dear T: I Really Need to Tell You Something, but I Don't Know How...Part XXXI
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Apr 19, 2018, 11:44 PM
LabRat27
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Member Since: Mar 2018
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Self harm TW
Possible trigger:
I want to ask you if I can show you my scars tomorrow.
I know you've seen flashes of them when I briefly lifted my sleeves when referencing them, but you haven't seen both of my upper arms in their entirety.
I'm not sure what you'd make of my request though. I've already told you that part of me wants attention for them and wants to be told that they're "bad enough" and wants other people to be bothered by them. Especially somewhat older male figures, which you are.
I know objectively that my scars are "bad." I know objectively that very few people wouldn't flinch when they saw them. I know they're much worse than people are expecting 99% of the time.
I want to show you and to get a reaction from you. I'm just not sure if that would be beneficial or harmful in the long run. Would you even agree to me showing you? I mean, I could just come in wearing a tank top one day, but I wouldn't because I want it to be your choice whether or not to see them.
I still haven't decided whether or not I'll bring it up tomorrow. I know you'd want to talk about why I want to show you, and I don't want to talk about that.
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